Until extremely recently I was a deist in the sense that I believed in an impersonal deity or, in other words, a deity that is not part of a religion and that didn't directly intervene in the world.
People had problems with that definition, though. Because it sounded like I was talking about intervention. But I don't think it qualified as, at least, direct intervention.
But it turns out that 'pantheism' was perhaps a better description for what I believed. I believed that God was the universe and that the universe/God has a will and what it wills is what it wants and what it wants is just whatever happens.
But now I'm starting to doubt that the universe has a will ... and so it seems meaningless to still call the universe God. So that is where I'm at. That's why not deism, for me.
People had problems with that definition, though. Because it sounded like I was talking about intervention. But I don't think it qualified as, at least, direct intervention.
But it turns out that 'pantheism' was perhaps a better description for what I believed. I believed that God was the universe and that the universe/God has a will and what it wills is what it wants and what it wants is just whatever happens.
But now I'm starting to doubt that the universe has a will ... and so it seems meaningless to still call the universe God. So that is where I'm at. That's why not deism, for me.
"Zen … does not confuse spirituality with thinking about God while one is peeling potatoes. Zen spirituality is just to peel the potatoes." - Alan Watts
