Hey, I am a deconverted christian, and also a mental health counselor. I'm here to help you!
You, like so many, are a victim of indoctrination. Firstly, ask yourself why you don't have these feelings about the Hindu gods. You weren't indoctrinated into Hindu beliefs. The human psyche, while powerful is also very fragile. You have an injured psyche and it needs to heal! If I am understanding you correctly, your intellect and logic are telling you that god/religion is bullshit, but you find yourself questioning it, and second guessing yourself. This is normal.
People whom have experienced years of incarceration report that even 2 years of freedom they find it difficult to get rid of old habits they formed in prison. The experiential phenomena is explainable in this way. I hope you don't get offended when I say this, but it must be said: It's a psychological delusion.
You've experienced these mind-tricks for so long that it is hard for you to recognize when you're even having one. You're a victim. Remember that! Every time you have these feelings remember that you didn't choose to have your brain programmed to create delusions during times when your intellect is compromised by fatigue or stress. I would be glad to help you work through these issues if you'd like. I am not a doctor, but I am an excellent listener and a very practical, rational person.
In the meantime:
http://scholar.google.com/scholar?q=psyc...i=scholart
You, like so many, are a victim of indoctrination. Firstly, ask yourself why you don't have these feelings about the Hindu gods. You weren't indoctrinated into Hindu beliefs. The human psyche, while powerful is also very fragile. You have an injured psyche and it needs to heal! If I am understanding you correctly, your intellect and logic are telling you that god/religion is bullshit, but you find yourself questioning it, and second guessing yourself. This is normal.
People whom have experienced years of incarceration report that even 2 years of freedom they find it difficult to get rid of old habits they formed in prison. The experiential phenomena is explainable in this way. I hope you don't get offended when I say this, but it must be said: It's a psychological delusion.
You've experienced these mind-tricks for so long that it is hard for you to recognize when you're even having one. You're a victim. Remember that! Every time you have these feelings remember that you didn't choose to have your brain programmed to create delusions during times when your intellect is compromised by fatigue or stress. I would be glad to help you work through these issues if you'd like. I am not a doctor, but I am an excellent listener and a very practical, rational person.
In the meantime:
http://scholar.google.com/scholar?q=psyc...i=scholart
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