trying to adopt an amoral worldview

[arewethereyet]

Hi, I''m new here. So... I came here because I could use some pointers if you have any. 

I left Christianity a decade ago after reading the whole Bible. I had too many intellectual problems with it. But now, a decade after the fact, I still find myself looking at people in terms of "good" and "bad". But I've seen "bad" people be rewarded lavishly by nature for stabbing their friends in the back and stealing their girlfriends AND friends; these people are some of the most loved people I know. I still see that through the lens of "fairness"; I see it as being a bad person, being immoral, etc. I would love to come out of this mindset and adopt another one more in tune with the way the universe actually works. I don't want to be that weak person who thinks he'll get what he wants by being "good". Unfortunately I don't have a good feel for how much of life should be seen as "climbing the dominance hierarchy" and "being kind to your fellow man". I dunno. I'm just confused right now, and if this post made no sense, I wouldn't blame you.

If you get what I'm trying to say though, I'd really appreciate some pointers. I'm sure I'm not as seasoned in the "real-world" thinking as a lot of you atheists-for-life are. Thanks.

actually being a former Christian gives you great incite as to how this world works. like you pointed out in this world good is evil and evil is good. if you want to be rewarded by the master of this world then simply follow the lines of evil you yourself have observed. I know what your asking is how to be evil and not feel guilty of being evil. the trick i have observed here and other atheist platforms is to simply tell yourself there is no god over and over and over again. deny everything and all proof. because if you can kill god in your mind you can silence the heart enough to be that 'moral' person the world demands you to be.

if however you grow weary of this, you can always go home. not to trade good deeds for works mind you that was never the deal. but rather serve God and if you are found diligent in your responsibilities you will be given

Bold mine.

Wandered off in mid-thought again?  

Given what?  Twinkies, gold doubloons, 72 virgins?