I grew up Catholic too.
This forum is a good place to get clarity. Just by talking about the plausibility of gods, and recognizing the issues with belief it can help you come to grips with your emotions.
It's good to want to keep promises. Distress at breaking a promise is only natural. But there is no need for distress over a promise made to a non-existent entity.
One thing I'm sure you consider most of the time is how God is a construct of ancient peoples... to serve as an identity marker to distinguish one tribe from another, or a means to control others/maintain order.
This forum is a good place to get clarity. Just by talking about the plausibility of gods, and recognizing the issues with belief it can help you come to grips with your emotions.
It's good to want to keep promises. Distress at breaking a promise is only natural. But there is no need for distress over a promise made to a non-existent entity.
One thing I'm sure you consider most of the time is how God is a construct of ancient peoples... to serve as an identity marker to distinguish one tribe from another, or a means to control others/maintain order.
Nietzsche Wrote:"He who seeks, easily gets lost. All loneliness is guilt"—thus speaks the herd. And you have long belonged to the herd. The voice of the herd will still be audible in you. And when you will say, "I no longer have a common conscience with you," it will be a lament and an agony. Behold, this agony itself was born of the common conscience, and the last glimmer of that conscience still glows on your affliction.
But do you want to go the way of your affliction, which is the way to yourself? Then show me your right and your strength to do so. Are you a new strength and a new right? A first movement? A self-propelled wheel? Can you compel the very stars to revolve around you?