A different perspective

[Angrboda]

Might want to take that up with your alleged creator and his comically inept forging scheme, but, again...why?  Why do you feel that your life is devoid of these things?  Love, joy..all the good stuff.  Why are these things not available to you as they are to the rest of us?  What are you suffering from, or for?

I must have some kind of personality disorder. My official diagnosis is "bipolar disorder" but people with bipolar disorder suffer a lot less than me. I wish I had manic highs and crushing lows, instead everything is an incredibly boring and painful middle zone.

It can get better. I suffered chronic depression for close to 40 years and didn't believe that. But the last few years of my life have been pretty good. Just keep working the program.