Is the suffering worth it

[Angrboda]

I disagree.  We can't choose in each moment what we think, but we can choose to adopt habits that make certain thoughts more or less likely.  The end result is pretty much the same.

I don't believe in freewill.  But if we have freewill, then sure.

Free will is irrelevant. We make decisions based upon the information we have. If that information says that we can reduce our suffering then we can decide to reduce our suffering.