Sexual Fluidity

[Ahriman]

My entire sense of self was predicated on being successful with females, and when that didn't work out, I pretty much became a different person, and not for the better. It can't be helped.

I can understand the effect of the loss of a sense of self, but I think it possible (if you want) to re-construct a new alternative self identity which doesn't hate and use people.  I think k that would likely be in your best interests as being someone who hates and uses others is likely to make your life worse than it otherwise could have been.

What caused your failure with girls, and is that still an issue now?

I used to love females. I respected them. But I had major insecurities based on thinking I wasn't funny or talented enough, my underwhelming dick size, etc. Nowadays I couldn't care less about any of that because I don't respect women and don't care what they think. But that's proven to be just another kind of stumbling block. Still, I wish I had skipped straight to the lack of respect for women and general hatred for humanity and not bothered with the "maybe life isn't so bad" phase.