Sexual Fluidity

[Ahriman]

So you had various insecurities and this led you to get rejected, and this led you to start disrespecting women, and that in turn led you to hate all humans.

There seems a rational disconnect between having insecurities and losing respect for women.  How did you rationalise your insecurities being the fault of women or making women unworthy of respect?

I always thought females were talking badly about me behind my back, or making fun of me. Real or imagined, that disrespect drove me up a wall. That lack of control over what other people did when I wasn't around, really got on my nerves. I wanted to know what people were thinking and feeling. I pretty much wanted to live their lives for them. This made me feel ashamed of myself, like I would never be good enough on my own, but could possibly be good enough if I were someone else.