[Serious] Depression

[MR. Macabre 666]

Most of the time I can work through things...with the help of meds.  After getting through cancer starting in 2009, I worked through all sorts of lingering pain and other issues and was finally feeling like things might get back to something near normal.  In 2017 I had a heart attack and that sent me all the way back and then some.  Since then I have dealt with a vast array of illnesses and other issues...many that sap my energy.  Anemia seems to be recurring for me when I have a big health issue and I have to fight my way back.  

I am lucky in that three years ago I found a part time job working from home.  I can work around my health if I have to though I make every effort to start each day at the same time since others are depending on me.

Oddly, COVID led me back to an old hobby when people started needing masks.  I hadn't sewn in years as it was a pain after a full workday and long commutes to drag everything out to work on a project.  Now my home office is also my sewing room and I make quilts when I feel like working on them.  I listen to audiobooks while I do that.  That helps.  I had forgotten how much I enjoyed sewing and being creative.

But then there are days....



I have learned to remember that tomorrow may be better.  If not tomorrow, then maybe the next day.

For the most part I try not to dwell but sometimes I need to take a break, when I break.

I'm very sorry that you've had to endure all of that shit, it fucking sucks. Going to the gym and listening to music, really heavy, dark stuff helps me deal with my situation. I'm glad that you've found something that helps.