Hello!

[BrianSoddingBoru4]

"Please refer to the 30/30 rule"
"It's a general rule to prevent spam."
"New members must make 30 posts and be a member for 30 days before they are allowed to post external content, such as links, images, or videos."

So I am incentivized to spam 30 posts before I can link to genuine content about myself? This seems backwards.

"This is advertising."

What am I advertising? My own life's story? Am I supposed to pretend I am not a person until I hit the magic number of posts? What should I post about in the meantime? What is the acceptable way to introduce myself? How much of me must I censor before my presence is tolerated? Can I copy the contents of a Reddit comment I made before I was banned from there? It was written for the "Why did you leave christianity?" megathread. I was banned for debating christians in a sub dedicated to debating christians.

In the meantime, welcome aboard!

Thank you, though I do not feel welcome. I feel I am being silenced and erased again. I feel existentially threatened from being treated unfairly my whole life, and it keeps happening. I often wish I was dead, but I'm too scared to do it. I am also tired of harmful assumptions, so I will try to get ahead of at least one: I have tried three different therapists, all of them made things worse in their own way. Do not suggest I try another unless you are willing to pay for it. I think things are worse than most people realize, and backwards yet common ideas like "everyone is entitled to their beliefs" sustain abusive systems.

My own parents hurt me and called it "love," and it seems the whole world would rather pretend I do not exist instead of acknowledging how bad things are so we can actually start to change for the better. It is partly why I am unable to trust anybody, people regularly treat me like I've done something wrong when I did not ask to be born and specifically asked not to be abused. I am furious at every person who enables my suffering, and I am terrified on behalf of the untold number of people who have it worse than I do, innocent people hurting and dying every day for the careless shortsightedness of others. Physical child abuse is still legal in all 50 states. I am tired of being "hit" for behaving reasonably. I am frustrated by my inability to help anybody, myself included, and not for lack of trying.

Trust me, you’re not being picked on - this is not about you specifically. We cannot make exceptions based on your personal journey (tragic though it seems to be).

You are perfectly free to discuss your life, provided you do so without breaking the rules you agreed to follow when you signed up.

Boru