My frustration stems from the fact that I put so much of myself online already, but I have to start over here. I guess I can post my links in another 7 days, but by that point my introduction has already been established on a much worse note. Oh well. It isn't a big problem compared to everything else, I can say I overreacted.
Good idea, thank you. Yes, it has been fairly stressful. I managed to find a new place, but I haven't finished moving everything yet. I would like to get away from the bible belt and those who hurt me, so my ultimate goal is to try living in Colorado, but for now I am moving from Missouri to Kansas. I am trying to get retirement money out to give me more leeway while I set a new course for my life. I was a web developer, but the job market is currently a mess and I may want a change of pace anyway. I've also thought about going back to college, even if it means taking out student loans again, but I am unsure whether that would be wise. I was thinking electrical engineering or teaching, though I recognize teachers are typically overworked and underpaid. I worry I would spend years and the rest of my money getting another degree, but still be unable to do anything with either degree. I could have kept my somewhat lucrative job at the bank I worked for, but that work was doing more harm than good.
Society rewards wrong behavior and punishes doing the right thing. I never wanted to be a sellout, but it can be easy to ignore the consequences of our actions when we are so disconnected from them. So I might rather die than work another "evil" job, and I am going vegan as of this year. I want to focus more on healthy sustainability, but I have decades of bad habits. Part of me would like to become an ecologist or otherwise somehow help with the human waste situation, climate change, etc. The average person is still regularly choosing to make the future worse for everybody. It is what we have been conditioned to do, and change is often difficult.
I never wanted much out of life. My happiest memories are of playing games with my childhood friends; I wish I could have stayed there. I want to see a better world where more people have the opportunity to be happier and healthier. I am unsure how to help us get to that when I am so encumbered by my problems, but that is what I would like to spend the rest of my life on. Future generations do not deserve the mess they are inheriting.
(June 2, 2026 at 10:44 pm)The Grand Nudger Wrote: One way to exercise just a little touch of control is to be here - telling us how the last thirty days have gone. Needing to move is a pain in the ass under good circumstances.
Good idea, thank you. Yes, it has been fairly stressful. I managed to find a new place, but I haven't finished moving everything yet. I would like to get away from the bible belt and those who hurt me, so my ultimate goal is to try living in Colorado, but for now I am moving from Missouri to Kansas. I am trying to get retirement money out to give me more leeway while I set a new course for my life. I was a web developer, but the job market is currently a mess and I may want a change of pace anyway. I've also thought about going back to college, even if it means taking out student loans again, but I am unsure whether that would be wise. I was thinking electrical engineering or teaching, though I recognize teachers are typically overworked and underpaid. I worry I would spend years and the rest of my money getting another degree, but still be unable to do anything with either degree. I could have kept my somewhat lucrative job at the bank I worked for, but that work was doing more harm than good.
Society rewards wrong behavior and punishes doing the right thing. I never wanted to be a sellout, but it can be easy to ignore the consequences of our actions when we are so disconnected from them. So I might rather die than work another "evil" job, and I am going vegan as of this year. I want to focus more on healthy sustainability, but I have decades of bad habits. Part of me would like to become an ecologist or otherwise somehow help with the human waste situation, climate change, etc. The average person is still regularly choosing to make the future worse for everybody. It is what we have been conditioned to do, and change is often difficult.
I never wanted much out of life. My happiest memories are of playing games with my childhood friends; I wish I could have stayed there. I want to see a better world where more people have the opportunity to be happier and healthier. I am unsure how to help us get to that when I am so encumbered by my problems, but that is what I would like to spend the rest of my life on. Future generations do not deserve the mess they are inheriting.
God is a deadly human lie. Every human is better without religion. I was abused by my christian parents.
