Pastor once told me we all naturally believe in god

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Remember in highschool pastor told me that we are gods children
And naturally drawn to him, even if no one ever told us about god, we would believe in him as we went through life. And atheists and agnostics believe in god too, we are just angry with him so we use science to disprove him

This pastor is a liar/plain wrong or both.

I kinda agree, but I believe god likes everyone but me, that's why I became agnostic.

Frankly this is an absurd reason to be agnostic. If you believe in god (whether you think he likes you or not) you are not agnostic. Maybe you should go find out what the word agnostic means.

I understand everyone has trials in life, but seems like I'm always on the poising side of life. I always get made fun of, I always get rejected by a girl, and I'm always the one who makes threads online about wanting to die

Okay, quite a few people will probably not like what I'm gonna say. But I'll say it anyway.

GET A GRIP. There's so much in life worth living for. You're damn right everyone has trials in life. Some people live lives you cannot even comprehend how fucked up they are. Now no offence to you, but so what, you get knocked back by a girl, happens to everyone. Move on. If this is seriously as shitty as your life gets then fuck me, you are complaining for fucking nothing.

If you are seriously feeling suicidal I'd urge you to phone a suicide hotline or something. But sounds to me like you are just feeling pity for yourself. Well frankly that doesn't do anyone any good.

Seems like everyone else I know irl Is just fine. And when I told my
Christian Friends how I feel, thy couldn't even imagine. They just said j need I need to pray more and bring a change to my soul.

These 'friends' don't sound like friends. If they were real friends, they'd be there for you and talk to you about your problems. Not just fob you off to go pray to a god that doesn't answer.

I tried everything to suck gods divine dick; but he just does not like me

Or he just doesn't fucking exist.

So working on cutting him out of my life
Just gonna try to detach from thus life. I won't care about anything
I'll quit games
I'll quit trying ti get stable and do college
I already quit working out

Im just gonna sleep all day and surf forums and maybe watch southpark online

But won't take anymore stress in life

How is this cutting god out of your life? Forgive me if I'm wrong, but this sounds awfully poeish.

If I am wrong, and I hope I'm not, then it sounds like you have some serious self esteem problems, and should contact a professional to help you.