@ greneknight, who's concept of God have you accepted and what makes their concept the correct one. Because you believe in another's concept of God does not make that concept true, and the concept is not true just because someone else (members of your church) believes it to be true.
You are a Churchian, one who believes that the church offers them what they need, Christians know their needs are meet by Christ through grace, I agree with CBA222, you are not a christian. You have failed on all points to meet in the slightest the level of belief that is required to be a christian. Christ said to His disciples, if you have faith the size of a mustard seed you could move a mountain, well they never did, all the mountains are in place, so what does this say about your belief. You use Christianity as a crutch or maybe it's more like an insurance policy, just in case hell is real. Look at it this way, if hell is real then so are the scriptures, and if the scriptures are real then you have failed and your insurance policy is no better than the concept you believe in, which is a complete failure.
You are a Churchian, one who believes that the church offers them what they need, Christians know their needs are meet by Christ through grace, I agree with CBA222, you are not a christian. You have failed on all points to meet in the slightest the level of belief that is required to be a christian. Christ said to His disciples, if you have faith the size of a mustard seed you could move a mountain, well they never did, all the mountains are in place, so what does this say about your belief. You use Christianity as a crutch or maybe it's more like an insurance policy, just in case hell is real. Look at it this way, if hell is real then so are the scriptures, and if the scriptures are real then you have failed and your insurance policy is no better than the concept you believe in, which is a complete failure.
God loves those who believe and those who do not and the same goes for me, you have no choice in this matter. That puts the matter of total free will to rest.