@ greneknight, 14 well little one you have miles to go so do not get in a hurry, you're thinking is all wrong if you are really looking for the truth. You have already eliminated thins you need in your life to make decisions, you should gather up all you have condemned to trash, it could be it is where you will find the truth. Anyone who eliminates any of the possibilities at your age is in for disappointment in their future. Just some advice, what you do with it is your business.
God loves those who believe and those who do not and the same goes for me, you have no choice in this matter. That puts the matter of total free will to rest.