My username is my story of deconversion

[Mystic]

The hardest part of letting go of belief in a religion, I think,is that there is nothing else that offers answers to "why are we here,what is our purpose,is there life after death?

These are just some of the questions religions tempt to answers. Others are "is there any direction/path that is best", "what is our value" "what are we" "how do we know virtue?" "how do we distinguish right from wrong" "what makes something praiseworthy as opposed to not" "what is the balance in life" "what is justice"

Of course, most people never wanted to look for the answer within, so they looked up for "wise" "leaders" to teach them, and those wise leaders never had an explanation, so mythology was made up.

At any rate, science and philosophy hasn't provided an answer to these questions either.

Wisdom is always taught to be an exalted beautiful thing to have. That is the natural instinct of humanity.

However, that is an assumption we make. We are driven by passion to find the truth, but at the same time believing the truth will be beautiful at the end.

Evolution (naturalism) explains why we developed such magical thinking but so does magical thinking.

At the end "logic" itself cannot know between belief in praise, goodness, beauty, exaltedness, and origin, and meaningless emptiness.

Neither can "passion" know.

Why we should feel connection to our past. Why we should regret actions or not. Why would we should feel pride or any self-worth.

We make a lot of assumptions. Plunge into the depths, and perhaps you will find the truth.

Will the truth be beautiful and meaningful and peaceful and pleasurable? No one can tell you. Perhaps it will be totally meaningless, void, empty.

But personally I believe we should have the courage to seek it, and sincerity of hope to find our true selves.

Remembering who you truly are, perhaps is all that the Messengers came to remind us of, and then their messages got distorted with teachings of hate and immorality by leaders who were followed and had no authority.

Just because you haven't found the answer, doesn't mean there is no way.

Just because no leaders have provided with a way, doesn't mean there is no way.

And if all holy books and religions are corrupted now, doesn't mean they were not based on primary wisdom in the first place.

"I don't know is a step"..."I cannot know" is laziness. "I hope to know and will dive in the depths to know" takes courage.

You might never know, but the journey is itself noble and better than blind following or giving up.