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[Edwardo Piet]

Then why do you care to respond? When I'm feeling completely and utterly apathetic: I don't even move due to absence of caring.

I am including the connotation of "carefree" which is positive in a "happy" sense so it includes emotion and therefore entails that I am not talking about absolute apathy.

Which is clearly not what you are experiencing.

Correct. I am not experiencing absolute apathy. I feel good for that, I'm carefree... not careless

Different connotation, different feeling, not much technical difference besides the fact I'm not currently reckless really.

Besides... who mentioned absolutes in the first place?

I would suggest, rather... that it is 'reckless abandon with no concern for the consequences of one's actions',

Nope, I enjoy caring a little bit right now... I'm just so happy it's hard to care much. Maybe I'm not caring enough. Oh well... can't put myself down again!

Medicated drugs fuck people up (not necessarily in bad ways).

That can be true sometimes.

Ashton just last night got on an anti-depressant, and today she's supremely hyper and bouncy.

That can be good sometimes. It depends on the situation

I do not think that mania is equatable with taking say... a psychedelic.

I would have absolutely no idea.

For all of one's greatly overvalued understanding of self while manic... the world simply isn't melting before them. It's a wholly different experience than say... acid, PCP, LSD.

Although when I first experienced my mania many doctors/nurses believed that I was on high doses of LSD and tested me twice and then questioned me again after finding nothing twice... and I was not believed, and not believed, and not believed.... until someone said that I was telling the truth because, he said, "You're telling the truth... I can see it in your eyes."

And I wouldn't consider mania so much of a 'high' as it is a euphoria.

I have never ever taken illegal drugs so I can't speak from personal experience. Although I do believe I've met people on drugs and they've been jealous of me

Oh and by the way... euphoria is kind of high.....

Bipolar is about low mood, high mood... or a mixture of ambivalent high and low at the same time.

I hate the mixture the most because it makes me irritable. Low isn't nice though.