Are depressed people more realistic?

[The Grand Nudger]

Well when I believe in a Creator, it seems realistic. And when I don't, it seems realistic. I would not believe either way, if it didn't seem that way to me at that moment.

Well, that might put the coals to the notion that being "more realistic" is somehow tied to depression. You were being realistic in both occassion, entirely different propositions, yet one seems to have made you happier than the other.

But to be honest, I think I have disadvantage, in that, I don't know how everyone perceives things, by my own experience. I have schizophrenia therefore I am prone to delusions.

We're all in that boat amigo. My red/your red.

One thing I feel is that small existence cannot exist independently and neither can infinite or large amount of small existences (adding up). I feel that it needs to be sustained and caused continuously. That not even the Creator can bestow independent existence to it, as it's virtually impossible.

To see if it's a delusion that is unique to me, I asked people of various faiths (Theist) on forums if any of them share that view. It seemed some did and no one said they didn't.

You have to understand at point it seemed like I was witnessing dead human spirits from the past in a spiritual dimension and I was there while in my room or in the Car.

So I really don't know if how I perceive myself (constantly seems like I am a soul) is like how others perceive themselves or I am constantly experiencing something abnormal.

Your experiences would make a hell of a thread.