Welcome aboard!
Since you are the son of a preacher, I'm not sure if this quite applies, but have you heard of 'The Clergy Project'?
http://www.clergyproject.org/
"The Clergy Project is a confidential online community for active and former clergy who do not hold supernatural beliefs. The Clergy Project launched on March 21st, 2011."
Seems like there might be some helpful resources there.
Since you are the son of a preacher, I'm not sure if this quite applies, but have you heard of 'The Clergy Project'?
http://www.clergyproject.org/
"The Clergy Project is a confidential online community for active and former clergy who do not hold supernatural beliefs. The Clergy Project launched on March 21st, 2011."
Seems like there might be some helpful resources there.
You'd believe if you just opened your heart" is a terrible argument for religion. It's basically saying, "If you bias yourself enough, you can convince yourself that this is true." If religion were true, people wouldn't need faith to believe it -- it would be supported by good evidence.