(May 13, 2013 at 11:21 pm)Rhythm Wrote: Sounds to me like you underestimated (and continue to underestimate) your own abilities. The only way to maintain this position is to maintain that its no longer you, but a compelling magic that's currently (or was) "loving" your wife from the area of your general vicinity (don't giggle....don't do it).......
.....otherwise it's still you, doing what normal people do, what requires no supernatural assistance to accomplish.
Every man knows his limits. I was ready for a divorce, because at that point we had lost support of everyone in her family and mine. Both her mom and dad told me we love her but will not do anything else for her. They were ready to let her die if that's what was needed. It cost me my relationship with my father as well as he coud not understand how a non drug user could be with someone who used drugs, as a result he and I did not speak for 8 years. 4 years into that 8 of being completely isolated from friends and family I was past done. My commitment to God, and to my vow to her before Him was the only thing we had left. i know this because we had 2 more years of hardship to endure.
During that peroid all that was left in me was a since of duty and a commitment I made to God. For if we Love the Lord as He commands (With all of our Heart, Mind, Spirit, and strength) this love filters back when things like a love of a spouce is not able to sustain a relationship when one of you is not able keep up your end of the relationship. What you do not seem to understand that if both of you are focoused on God (something greater than the sum of the parts of your relationship) Then you have the ablity to tap into a far deeper capasity to love than what you are able to offer just on your own..
