"I still love you," means they will keep praying for you and hope you will return some day, just as the prodigal son did. We always have hope, if you were the Christian you claim you should know this. However if you were not the Christian you claim, I can understand why you had to ask the question.
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God loves those who believe and those who do not and the same goes for me, you have no choice in this matter. That puts the matter of total free will to rest.