A mistake I made

[Angrboda]

While the lack of feeling on anti-depresants is a fairly common side effect, it isn't a necessary part of anti-depressant treatment. Different people react differently to the same drugs, and you may react differently to drugs even if they are in the same class. If you are dissatisfied with the effects of your medication, consider changing it under the care of a physician. For now, given that you have a young one to care for, the stability you enjoy from your current medication may be more important than experimenting with alternative treatments, whether marijuana or a different anti-depressant. I appreciate that everybody deserves a do over, but beyond the negligence involved in the actual events, risking compromising your stability and health while you have such a young child depending on you to be stable is rather reckless. What if your alternative remedy doesn't work, and while you're busy with depressive episodes, your wife gets sick, or dies? Where is your child then?