How much is what you are going to do hurt your wife? In a monogamous relationship (and other relationships are perfectly fine) it seems terribly selfish to cause such pain to your partner for what is ultimately little gain to yourself. Talk to a therapist before you do something stupid and irreversible. Or if you have excellent communication with your spouse talk to her about it.
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