Hello, Hello.
Unfortunately for religions God doesn't manifest himself as tiny voices in everyone's heads. That is, God doesn't talk to most people. So consider yourself lucky that you're not deluded like those people are.
When I was religious, constantly praying and receiving no answer in return was one thing which contributed to my atheism. I didn't feel any fear or regret upon losing my faith, but I put more faith in science, logic, and reason which took me away from religion and installed a healthy skepticism in me.
I hope you can get things sorted out. Whatever path you take, welcome to the forums.
Unfortunately for religions God doesn't manifest himself as tiny voices in everyone's heads. That is, God doesn't talk to most people. So consider yourself lucky that you're not deluded like those people are.
When I was religious, constantly praying and receiving no answer in return was one thing which contributed to my atheism. I didn't feel any fear or regret upon losing my faith, but I put more faith in science, logic, and reason which took me away from religion and installed a healthy skepticism in me.
I hope you can get things sorted out. Whatever path you take, welcome to the forums.
Christian apologetics is the art of rolling a dog turd in sugar and selling it as a donut.