Thanks for the support guys. It really does mean a lot.
I'm not sure if I'm still angry at or hate my father. When I focus on him I feel a lot of pity. Ultimately, he went through things that shaped how he interacts with and views the world, let's just say it's not positive. I commiserate because I've been through shit too. It just seems like he gave up on trying to overcome it and be a better person in spite of his experiences, and I work my ass off everyday to achieve some balance in my life (with varying degrees of success, but generally the trend is positive as of late).
I understand trying to reach out to him, but I've been burned by this man so many times... There's a definite fear of being sucked in again and hurt. I don't know if reaching out to him would be a good thing for me... I'll have to think about that... I'm sure it will be the topic de jour in therapy this week... *sigh*
But seriously, thank you for the support.
I'm not sure if I'm still angry at or hate my father. When I focus on him I feel a lot of pity. Ultimately, he went through things that shaped how he interacts with and views the world, let's just say it's not positive. I commiserate because I've been through shit too. It just seems like he gave up on trying to overcome it and be a better person in spite of his experiences, and I work my ass off everyday to achieve some balance in my life (with varying degrees of success, but generally the trend is positive as of late).
I understand trying to reach out to him, but I've been burned by this man so many times... There's a definite fear of being sucked in again and hurt. I don't know if reaching out to him would be a good thing for me... I'll have to think about that... I'm sure it will be the topic de jour in therapy this week... *sigh*
But seriously, thank you for the support.
