Dude, you are NOT an atheist. Not even close.
If trying to convince yourself that that you are an atheist - even while you blame God for your troubles and pray to God to fix them - is making you this unhappy, you should probably just chuck atheism and admit that you're a believer.
Other advice: Change therapists if at all possible.
Boru
If trying to convince yourself that that you are an atheist - even while you blame God for your troubles and pray to God to fix them - is making you this unhappy, you should probably just chuck atheism and admit that you're a believer.
Other advice: Change therapists if at all possible.
Boru
‘I can’t be having with this.’ - Esmeralda Weatherwax