There is no "keeping faith in atheism." Either you believe a god exists or you don't. And in your case it appears that you do.
I'm with Brian, I think you need to see a different therapist or something. It would appear that you've got issues that the other therapists haven't been able to resolve yet. I would say that your belief in God isn't healthy at this point because you're wondering if you've been cursed by him with this illness. I find it strange that your therapists refuse to discuss your God belief because it does look like it's part of the problem, but I'm no psychologist.
Hang in there.
I'm with Brian, I think you need to see a different therapist or something. It would appear that you've got issues that the other therapists haven't been able to resolve yet. I would say that your belief in God isn't healthy at this point because you're wondering if you've been cursed by him with this illness. I find it strange that your therapists refuse to discuss your God belief because it does look like it's part of the problem, but I'm no psychologist.
Hang in there.
Christian apologetics is the art of rolling a dog turd in sugar and selling it as a donut.
