Basing myself on my own personal feelings and experiences when I was a fundie, I can say that I too was afraid of death. I was always concerned about my eternal salvation and the question "If I died today would god find me worthy of inheriting a place in his kingdom?" Was all of my efforts in ministry, preaching, and gaining converts enough for me to warrant eternal salvation in Christ? I was overly concerned with everything I said and did and even thought. As soon as bad thoughts or inappropriate thoughts crept into my mind I was asking the lord for forgiveness and rebuking Satan all at once. That is why I always say that when I left the church it took me years to get over the fear of god. I dreaded the idea of spending eternity in hell which to me was as real as this world.
There is nothing people will not maintain when they are slaves to superstition
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