Atheism program

[Mudhammam]

Since everybody else is doing it, I went something like this: Fundamentalist Christian -> Agnostic/apathetic theist -> Fundamentalist Christian -> Agnostic/leaning towards atheism -> Agnostic/leaning towards deism -> Agnostic/leaning towards pantheism -> Agnostic -> Atheist -> Anti-theist.

There were times when I would be an agnostic with atheistic leanings one day and deistic leanings or pantheistic leanings the next. I still have a soft spot for deism and pantheism but since invoking God seems both unhelpful and unnecessary in either cases, I've learned to be quite happy as an atheist (and quite unhappy with the role religion plays in the world).

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Ah.... but it IS special.

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What sort of "special" were you aiming for?

It's very cool. It's just not the same. Perhaps it's more accurate to say that I still think the universe is special, but it doesn't reciprocate.

On the other hand, Is it wrong that I looked at the first one and thought "boobies"?

Boobies are still special.

Jacob, in my experience I eventually came to learn, through drastically reprogramming my thought patterns and all previous notions about the world and my place in it, that what I thought was special and reciprocal in my understanding of God was viciously inadequate compared to the reality of being alive in such a confounding Universe... And coming to know this Universe, including myself, more intimately by studying it day in and day out. That nobody has the complete picture, "THE truth," a theory of everything, is what makes it so interesting and full of surprises.