Gidday from Down Under mate.

[puglover]

Thankyou for the warm welcome!

Well, I am aware that there are many different forms of expression for the word 'agnostic' but for myself I find it very difficult to explain in words a gut feeling.
Although at times I think what I believe is very different to what I want to believe.

I do believe in some form of spirituality that are not necessarily marked as religious views or explained by science as of yet but have been felt so deeply and personally that I cannot deny it...
for instance that special connection you can have with a four legged friend!
also.. the relationship between mind/body/environment and the belief in self.
Yet at the same time I am cautious to not let my spirituality send me on a wild goose chase looking for faeries deep within the garden.. I like to question things but not be blinded by questions that brings about not resolve.

I once defined myself as an atheist and I was stubborn in saying that there was no God. To my old self I say prove that there is no God and I cannot.

I used to be ashamed of not knowing and I am not sure how this came about..
but I have learnt to be proud of my not knowing and from that stems a sense of bravery (sorry if that sounds ego headed lol) in accepting my fear.

I take it day by day.

Sometimes I look at my pug (dog) and think in all this mess of religion/politics that human kind has made.. the pug was the smart one.. it just ate it's food and didn't complain.

So, I suppose that you could say that my religious views is unknown and that of feeling.

If that makes any sense?

(Bex's secret thoughts: I am leaning on the side of there being no 'personal' God).

Oh and those old ladies that I see volunteering with church funded food vans for the homeless is not the work of God.. but I believe it is the work of Good People. I believe in good people!

I just get frusterated when I say 'agnostic' and then people put me in this box of therefore I must believe this, this and this. I am currently peeved that I continue to label myself with some poofwoofy word that makes me look smarter rather than to just be strong and firm and say I don't know. It needs work. lol.

Although, I also do pick out what I like out of several different religions to create a sort of melting pot of views.

(Btw. The pug's name is Grace. She is MY GOD lol. I tend to contradict myself a lot LOL.)