I wish to feel superior to reality (atheism)

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So you're saying as long as you're happy that automatically makes you superior to anyone who is depressed or happens to have a less pleasurable life than you?
If that's what you're saying, then I completely disagree with you.

This is what I'm saying and if you think otherwise, please prove the arguments I made here backing that up wrong.

Ok seriously, what I got from this is that you're too lazy to live real life. You'd really like to have an excuse to have someone else take care of you so you don't ever have to think or do anything for yourself. I don't usually like to be rude or mean, but I must say that this is a bit pathetic.

Come on, life doesn't work this way. You don't live in a fantasy world. No one is ever going to offer you the key to ultimate happiness via a wish or a portal. If you want to be happy then you need to first learn to find happiness in the life you already have, and second get off your butt and seek out whatever happiness you long for.

Your life will never be an anime cartoon.

I clearly stated that if I have chosen to instead be intelligent and have no pleasure, that would devastate my family and that it would be far better for them knowing that I am happy even if their lives were very difficult in having to take care of me if I were retarded and all happy. And why wouldn't they feel this way and feel devastated knowing that my emotional well-being (my pleasure) is all gone despite the fact that I am intelligent and such?

These things I'm saying here are not excuses--they are facts and unless you can disprove them, they will forever remain as facts.