(December 18, 2014 at 7:13 pm)MysticKnight Wrote: Sometimes I get thoughts to do random evil things. For example, my bro just got a new i phone and it occurred to me to break it. I didn't want to break it, but occurred to me to do it. There is other thoughts of this sort that happen to me. They come by and I don't know why.
It's the same with suicidal thoughts. I don't actually want to commit suicide but the thoughts come by.
I have plenty of reasons against these thoughts and reason against them. So if I'm against these thoughts, and they disturb me when I get them such as I feel why am I getting these thoughts...why do I get them? And what can be done about this?
I think some thoughts can be OCD in nature. Sometimes you can try and not think bad thoughts and it just focuses the brain on thinking bad thoughts more.
I think I saw it on some tv show, something like derren brown who specializes in subconscious thoughts. He told a professional tight rope walker repeatedly to be careful and to make sure they don't fall and so on, even though he naturally rope walks day to day and doesn't have to think about it but asking him to think about not falling made him fall more.
I've done it in ball games when I was a kid (not much because I am really good at ball games) where I've seen a cat in the yard and thought to myself I better avoid throwing the ball near the cat, then because I've been thinking about it I've accidentally done it.
Another thing is, I just tend to think evil thoughts for entertainment value. It's definitely not because I want to do these things but it's like making my own tv show in my head.
What if I killed my own parents now, what would the headlines be, how would I get caught, would I get caught. Could I kill everyone in work without being stopped/caught.
I don't want to do any of these things, sometimes I do the exact opposite and imagine what if I gave all my money to someone, how would they react, would they take the money even knowing it was all my money and so on.
If you're pretty sure the thoughts are more subconscious then personally I think the best thing to do is accept you have an imperfect human brain and you're going to get some weird fuckin thoughts that you don't like every now and again, but worrying about them more can cause them to happen more.
If you just consciously think these things when you're bored, then I think that's just pretty normal too, to come up with hypothetical situations and imagine how they would play out.
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