Existence: What the fuck is going on?

[robvalue]

The hardest thing to get my brain around is what "I" am. Scientifically, I'm my body, my brain and the emergent qualia and stuff. Intuitively, I'm somehow different from my brain, I attempt to utilise it but ultimately I'm at its mercy; I'm a hapless observer.

I doubt I'll ever be able to marry the two.

It did occur to me that it would be entirely consistent that "I" am everyone, I'm the observer of all the qualia of every brain. I simultaneously experience them all, or perhaps rapidly in sequence, but independently so I'm not aware of any other brains while in a particular one. I'm all you guys. But I'm an observer only.

More likely, I am nothing more than emergent properties somehow reflecting upon themselves.

It's a damn fine illusion though. Bastards.