Creed's Corner: A Collection of the Morbid, Mysterious, and Mrandom

[Creed of Heresy]

I've been doing that for a long time.  It's forced, phony, and little more than a mask cobbled together from the perceptions I've obtained through observation.  It's only useful as an outward display, something to use to hide the problems from the rest of the world...and I use it to that effect to the absolute fullest, I assure you.

Uh, after going through the whole thread and seeing those pictures of you, I have to say no, you're not doing that.

This isn't rocket surgery. Do the following and you'll feel better about yourself:

1. Get a haircut. From a barber shop, not a salon or a gay friend.
2. Shave.
3. Dress like a man.
4. Go to the gym.
5. Eat mostly meat, fish, eggs, and vegetables.
6. Stop whining like a girl.

1:  Why?
2:  If I never shaved, my facial hair would be a loooot longer, don'tcha think? (no you don't, that's the problem)
3:  I wear loose-fitting pants and t-shirts.  Pretty sure most men dress like that.  Sorry to inform you that your own style of dressing in frilly skirts and bras is actually not the average masculine standard.
4:  Sorry, but with all my other financial obligations right now [extensive medical bills, car payments and insurance, rent, electricity, cable, cab rentals, and food] and my time obligations [cabbing for ~12 hours a day five days a week on average to pay for those things], shelling out $55 a month and 2-3 hours a day at a gym with a bunch of "Alpha Male"s is both untenable and undesirable.
5:  "Eat food."  What a novel concept.  Last night I made season-rubbed pork loin and mashed red potatoes with thyme, garlic, salt, and pepper, with the reductions from the pork as gravy.  The night before, I made baked salmon with butter, garlic, and dill weed.  I both know how to cook and what to eat.
6:  You're absolutely right.  I should continue to internalize all my problems and negative emotions and keep the mask on not just in person but also online, because that is a healthy mindset to have.  No, wait I'm sorry, I got that wrong.  What actually happens when men do that is they snap and kill either themselves, other people, or both in a psychotic outburst because so-called "alpha males" have set the standard that expressing this kind of thing is something that should never be done.

Your understanding of psychological health is an absolute vacuous nothingness.  You say you struggled with addiction for 15 years.  I was heavily addicted to heroin.  For two years.  I was able to break out of it after two years.  It took you 15.

You'll have to pardon me for not really considering any advice you give me seriously.  I'm going to go out on a limb and say that your sobriety also came with the caveat that you became the religious tool that you are today, which (if true, IF) would mean you were also too weak to stay sober on your own and instead you needed to replace your addiction to a drug with an addiction to submission.  You traded one weakness for another.

I may be miserable, unhappy, and lacking any kind of identity but that's because I've spent my entire life and all my time fighting tooth and nail just to survive.  Most people in my position become sociopaths, rapists, killers, all the worst elements of humanity and it's taken me all my strength and willpower to direct myself from being that.  I have no identity or self-direction towards a successful life as you know and define it because for my entire life, success was defined by ensuring my survival and perseverance.  When you were learning your ABCs I was learning to successfully hide from pedarast foster parents and, failing evasion, how to maximize my chances of fighting hard enough and enduring enough so that either that attempted incidence was not worth the time, effort, or difficulty for them to have their way, or that I could at least not let it weaken me for whatever would come later.

So when you tell me to stop "whining like a girl," and you talk about "tough love," I look down upon you, and I find you wanting.

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Mostly weed and booze, just about every day from age 15 to 30. Was also a smoker. Dabbled in others when available.

Weed is not an addictive substance.