Be honest, am I going to hell for "my" atheism?

[Nope]

You all seem to have no problem of accepting the reality of suffering until you inject God into the situation.  You know that there are disasters, sickness, wars, crime and so on in the world and you just go on dealing with it.  Most of the claims that I have heard in this forum state that the person's life is going pretty well despite all the horrors in the world.  I don't understand why God must remove all these things from the world in order to be loving, and I do see good coming from suffering.  If you give your children everything and shield them from all adversity, all you will end up with is spoiled brats who are unable to fend for themselves.  If we approach suffering rightly, it will make us stronger and better people.  And I never try to make excuses for God.  If he does something a certain way, that's his business.  I just try to live with what I have to face, with his help, knowing my goal.

https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/out...s-stronger

 Yes, god must remove infant rape, at the least, for me to see your version of a deity as loving.  What good can come from what this very young child suffered? How does the existence of the sexual abuse of a baby keep the rest of us from being spoiled brats?

http://www.mlive.com/news/grand-rapids/i...ces_f.html

GRAND RAPIDS, MI - A Comstock Park couple's rape of a 1-year-old girl while they video recorded the act has resulted in a possible life sentence for the woman and three consecutive life sentences for the male.

and

The pair admitted they raped the 1-year-old daughter of a friend sometime around Oct. 25, 2012, in an apartment where the baby girl's brother and the couple's own children were present outside a locked bedroom door. The couple took turns recording one another assaulting the child, according to court records.

Leiber said that Foehl offered up the child as "sexual sacrifice" to Emory, but she also sexually assaulted the child. Police say the man raped the infant in a variety of ways

Hopefully, the infant will become a mentally healthy adult despite what she suffered but why the hell is such horrific abuse necessary to make a child stronger? What kind of strength does your god want this poor child to have?