Am I an Atheist?

[Rhondazvous]

As many of you may have noticed, the new server allows you to specify a URL for your own website if you have one. If you do, it puts a button under your posts on the left side to link to it. Check out Rhonda's. This is an impressive lady we have amongst us who has had to overcome a lot of adversity.

You're making me cry. Happy to be able to share with you guys.

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Atheist is not bad. To become a moral/value/praise nihilist is horrible. Unfortunately for me, I couldn't be an atheist without the latter. Deist made me feel intellectual but I became less spiritual as a Deist. It was hard to devote myself to God as a Deist. A book advising us, reminding, and clarifying for us, and guides to follow and teach us, just seemed to make a better lord.

One problem I found as a Deist is that I felt that truth had no help from God and you couldn't really support it but by your opinion. You think this is wrong, you state it. You think this is right, you state it. So what... no people are going to unite on an opinion of a person. Why should they.

It was tough trying to figure out everything for myself. Made me really confused.

And yet, figuring things out for ourselves is what we humans are left to do. That's what the men who wrote our holy books did. If they'd had divine help from a single god, there would only be a single book.

Biblical mythology is still a part of my cultural heritage, so I can't be a nihilist. But if there's going to be a judgment where we'll be held accountable for what we believe, I don't want to be one of those who'll be standing there trying to explain why they believed a book that said God created the grass and trees before he created the sun and the moon.