Am I an Atheist?

[AFTT47]

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Atheist is not bad. To become a moral/value/praise nihilist is horrible. Unfortunately for me, I couldn't be an atheist without the latter. Deist made me feel intellectual but I became less spiritual as a Deist. It was hard to devote myself to God as a Deist. A book advising us, reminding, and clarifying for us, and guides to follow and teach us, just seemed to make a better lord.

One problem I found as a Deist is that I felt that truth had no help from God and you couldn't really support it but by your opinion. You think this is wrong, you state it. You think this is right, you state it. So what... no people are going to unite on an opinion of a person. Why should they.

It was tough trying to figure out everything for myself. Made me really confused.

And yet, figuring things out for ourselves is what we humans are left to do. That's what the men who wrote our holy books did. If they'd had divine help from a single god, there would only be a single book.

There might be multiple books for people with very different backgrounds who conceptualize the world in different ways. There would certainly be a common thread amongst those books though. There sure as hell wouldn't be anything in any of those books that those diverse peoples might interpret as an edict from on high to wage war and atrocities on those who are different from themselves. A human author might not be able to avoid such mistakes but a God...