Man, that's a good question, Rob. I'm fairly certain that it wasn't fear-based, as the feeling suddenly came upon me through honest searching, reading, and playful speculation. I wasn't looking for an answer to a particular question. Maybe it's just the idea that all we can ask for is to know, and being pretty sure that by the time my time comes, I won't know some pretty big answers. That's a little uncomfortable.
To be less general, I was thinking on the nature of nothing, and whether there is a relationship with something, and my own mortality did weigh in unexpectedly, but only as a time limit, not as a fear-based belief motivator. The thought crossed my mind that, if there is some unavoidable relationship between nothing and something, then maybe there is no "end", just two different states to exist in, or maybe two sides to the same coin, and that thought somehow comforted me in an odd way that I never needed before. I wasn't even looking for comfort.
Two things happened, I got really frustrated, because I wanted to know the answer and I knew that most of that stuff is outside of the scope of science at the moment, but also I recognized the deistic nature of my thoughts, which I've never had. I'm uncomfortable with asserting that the relationship could be some deistic thing, but putting any label on the entirety of existence and non-existence gets tricky. Seems you could call it anything you want and nothing would change. Say it's deistic in nature or just nature and I couldn't tell who would be wrong.
I don't know (Ha), I'm just feeling around in the dark here and fleshing this out in real-time. I'm sure it'll pass and I'll go back to worrying about Jolie's grades or whatever.
To be less general, I was thinking on the nature of nothing, and whether there is a relationship with something, and my own mortality did weigh in unexpectedly, but only as a time limit, not as a fear-based belief motivator. The thought crossed my mind that, if there is some unavoidable relationship between nothing and something, then maybe there is no "end", just two different states to exist in, or maybe two sides to the same coin, and that thought somehow comforted me in an odd way that I never needed before. I wasn't even looking for comfort.
Two things happened, I got really frustrated, because I wanted to know the answer and I knew that most of that stuff is outside of the scope of science at the moment, but also I recognized the deistic nature of my thoughts, which I've never had. I'm uncomfortable with asserting that the relationship could be some deistic thing, but putting any label on the entirety of existence and non-existence gets tricky. Seems you could call it anything you want and nothing would change. Say it's deistic in nature or just nature and I couldn't tell who would be wrong.
I don't know (Ha), I'm just feeling around in the dark here and fleshing this out in real-time. I'm sure it'll pass and I'll go back to worrying about Jolie's grades or whatever.
I can't remember where this verse is from, I think it got removed from canon:
"I don't hang around with mostly men because I'm gay. It's because men are better than women. Better trained, better equipped...better. Just better! I'm not gay."
For context, this is the previous verse:
"Hi Jesus" -robvalue
"I don't hang around with mostly men because I'm gay. It's because men are better than women. Better trained, better equipped...better. Just better! I'm not gay."
For context, this is the previous verse:
"Hi Jesus" -robvalue
