I found jesus

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Thank you for sharing your story my friend. That's a brave thing to do. I think things are almost always better once you get them out of your head and into a discussion.

Very sorry you had to go through that crap. I too think of religion as an addictive drug. Indoctrination is basically like giving heroin to kids to get them hooked, so that they then "need" it. If you never forced it in them in the first place, they wouldn't need it at all.

You did a brave thing by stopping and evaluating yourself and your thoughts. I can't imagine how hard it must be to address beliefs so deeply ingrained. I hope that with time the after effects will fade, that seems to generally be the case with de-conversions.

Keep on blaspheming my friend!