How about Misery Love ?
example:
you volunteer for a hospice organization, the first thing they tell you in training is to NOT become emotionally attached to the clients, and you go "DUH!!" and then after you've worked with a client for a while and he dies and you're totally miserable for months/years afterward and you know it ISN'T because you fell in love with him because that would have been STUPID and then you're still depressed and miserable, and you're still sure it's not because you're in love with him because you NEVER shared one moment of joy or happiness because he was so sick for so long and it was all horrible and icky and just a fucking nightmare because he was super nice and so was his family and you still can't believe you're in love with him even if he was really handsome and despite his illness he was especially concerned about other people in the hospice program and didn't want anyone making a fuss over him and you're still fucking miserable because you won't fucking admit you fell in love with . . .
Brian.
example:
you volunteer for a hospice organization, the first thing they tell you in training is to NOT become emotionally attached to the clients, and you go "DUH!!" and then after you've worked with a client for a while and he dies and you're totally miserable for months/years afterward and you know it ISN'T because you fell in love with him because that would have been STUPID and then you're still depressed and miserable, and you're still sure it's not because you're in love with him because you NEVER shared one moment of joy or happiness because he was so sick for so long and it was all horrible and icky and just a fucking nightmare because he was super nice and so was his family and you still can't believe you're in love with him even if he was really handsome and despite his illness he was especially concerned about other people in the hospice program and didn't want anyone making a fuss over him and you're still fucking miserable because you won't fucking admit you fell in love with . . .
Brian.
The granting of a pardon is an imputation of guilt, and the acceptance a confession of it.
