Not again! -- Encouragement Please

[bladevalant546]

I understand you strife, however you have to think logically here. Deprogramming your mind takes time so feeling emotionally hurt is natural from of grief. Go out into the world and observe, go have sex or something, go read anti christian articles. You will learn that there is no some being going to strike you down. Those are manufacture feelings that you had to put on to gain acceptence from your religious peers. In short, start doing what your "heart" tells you and realize that your actions are in your control. If there is a god out there, why the hell would a universal being care more about petty things, should he be more worried about the crap world we live in? Give it time and make some non-christian friends to support you.