I love my youngest but goddamn. I did something I rarely do. I yelled so loud I hurt my throat. Yeah, that kind of yelling. Excuse the profanity that's coming in the following. I'm super pissed off right now.
Normally, I overlook some of the things she does because she is first and foremost going through puberty. Second, she lives with her dad most of the time and is subjected to being brainwashed by his narcissistic, psychopathic ass. But when she is here, lately, all I've gotten is smart-mouthed, sassing backtalk.
Just now, I told her to sit at the dinner table and eat with the other two kids. What did I get in return? "Mama, why should I have to sit at the table? You don't make me do it any other time." Wrong. Weekends that she is here, we ALL sit at the fucking table. Why? Because we are a family. My family sits at the table to eat. This is what we do. So, I yelled from the kitchen, where I was still making plates of food, "Sit at the goddamn fucking table now and stop fucking mouthing off. I am sick and tired of your backtalk girl!"
I went into the dining room and continued my yelling. "You know, I hate it when you make me yell. When any of you make me yell. And what am I doing? Fucking yelling! Why? Because I am tired of you (looking at my daughter) ALWAYS having the last fucking word and always resisting anything I ask you to do. I'm getting to the point where I'm not going to want you to be here on the weekends because all we do is fight and I shouldn't have to feel this way because I'm your mother and I fucking love you! So knock off this bullshit and just do as you are fucking told! That is it. No lip, no backtalk, no attitude. No bullshit. I AM DONE!"
Sorry for the vent. Sorry for the f-bombs all over the place. I just really needed to cool down. I can't even look at my kid right now. I am that angry. She made me say things a mother shouldn't say. I'm hurt that it came to that.
Normally, I overlook some of the things she does because she is first and foremost going through puberty. Second, she lives with her dad most of the time and is subjected to being brainwashed by his narcissistic, psychopathic ass. But when she is here, lately, all I've gotten is smart-mouthed, sassing backtalk.
Just now, I told her to sit at the dinner table and eat with the other two kids. What did I get in return? "Mama, why should I have to sit at the table? You don't make me do it any other time." Wrong. Weekends that she is here, we ALL sit at the fucking table. Why? Because we are a family. My family sits at the table to eat. This is what we do. So, I yelled from the kitchen, where I was still making plates of food, "Sit at the goddamn fucking table now and stop fucking mouthing off. I am sick and tired of your backtalk girl!"
I went into the dining room and continued my yelling. "You know, I hate it when you make me yell. When any of you make me yell. And what am I doing? Fucking yelling! Why? Because I am tired of you (looking at my daughter) ALWAYS having the last fucking word and always resisting anything I ask you to do. I'm getting to the point where I'm not going to want you to be here on the weekends because all we do is fight and I shouldn't have to feel this way because I'm your mother and I fucking love you! So knock off this bullshit and just do as you are fucking told! That is it. No lip, no backtalk, no attitude. No bullshit. I AM DONE!"
Sorry for the vent. Sorry for the f-bombs all over the place. I just really needed to cool down. I can't even look at my kid right now. I am that angry. She made me say things a mother shouldn't say. I'm hurt that it came to that.
Disclaimer: I am only responsible for what I say, not what you choose to understand.
