We all can be thankful

[J a c k]

Yeah, back to being thankful.

This was a very tough year for me. Very. There were times I thought I would lose it. No amount of therapy, meds, or food (yeah, I turned to food heh) was helping me. I was living in constant fear and panic.

I made it, though. The year isn’t even over yet and things are looking better. I’m thankful to my friends and family that didn’t give up. The ones that actually stuck by and didn’t get bored of watching me stuggle to breathe. I’m thankful to my parents for calling me even when they knew I’d most likely be asleep (slept most the year when not working) or drinking myself to sleep in my kitchen table. Thankful to my two kids, because on the days that I have them with me, I’m complete, sober, happy, full. Thankful to my boss, because she understood and didn’t kick me out when she’d look at my face and it was swollen, tired, depressed. Thankful to my cats for wrapping themselves around me in bed and making me feel loved. Thankful to this place for providing a place to vent.

(Looks around. Why does it feel like an acceptance speech? Someone hand me an award)