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3. The first time I received a barbie doll, I was about two at christmas. I opened the package, without looking up I picked up the barbie and threw it across the room and then took the animal toys that came with the doll and played happily with those. I was born without an attachment to femininity, I swear. (Although my favorite color was pink for years).

Then I would expect if I met you I would get a truer sense of whatever "femininity" might be since you won't have picked up so many cliche mannerisms. My wife too is without that sort of affectation .. except during sex when her fantasies and mine nicely coalesce along predictable lines. (I find one must be cruel to be kind sometimes.)

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Pink is the best colour. Femininity has nothing to do with it.

Funny thing about that. Ever since I was in high school the question of what if anything is feminine or masculine was something I questioned. And yet, when I got into gardening twenty odd years ago I discovered I had an aversion to the color pink. Another teacher and the librarian at my school and I made a tour of our three gardens. Carol's garden (the librarian) was by far the oldest, most developed and aesthetically pleasing. And yet, when we came to her pride and joy, an archway covered in New Dawn roses in bloom I felt myself recoil.

That struck me as so odd. It was like when I first discovered how yucky male homosexuality seemed to me. As soon as I realized it, I questioned it. It seemed as though I'd been sold a bill of goods culturally. I decided to reject that and subjected myself to enough gay thoughts (and later experiences) to get past the yucky. What I couldn't change was the fact that I just don't form attachments to males and I just like female bodies better overall. They're special to me in a way that just is what it is.

But back to the roses. I remember remarking on it. Over time I started paying attention to pink in gardens. I noticed the many different shades and how it looked with other colors. Eventually it lost whatever association it had had for me. Now I actually use it quite a lot in my garden. I think it has fresh appeal for me now.