(September 25, 2017 at 6:08 pm)Cyberman Wrote:(September 25, 2017 at 5:58 pm)pocaracas Wrote: Do you suppose that, had you been there with her, when that happened, you'd have made a difference?
Yes. Absolutely. When it happened, she was alone. Her mum was at the shop getting milk or whatever, one of her brothers was upstairs playing xbox. Had she been with me at the time, she would have been surrounded by people. My dad is a trained first aider, he could have got her in the recovery position while the ambulance arrived.
The consensus is she choked on her tongue while unconscious. We will never know how long she was alone before getting medical attention. All we know is that the paramedics worked on her for at least an hour - far longer than they usually work on anyone - to resuscitate her. They actually got her heart beating at one point, then lost it again.
So yeah, those events would certainly have played out differently if only I hadn't changed my mind.
Ok. Things could have been different that one time.
Many questions remain in my curious mind, but I'll drop them. I'm sure they've gone through yours enough times...no need for me to poke at them more than I already have. I'm sorry for making you relive this.
You did nothing wrong, except maybe not check if someone was indeed with her at all times.
I hope, someday, you'll manage to forgive yourself for that slight failure... For that reliance on her family to keep an eye on her...
From what you tell, they failed her far more than you.
You just wanted to make her happy. And you did.