Ask a former IV heroin addict

[AceBoogie]

Let me state beforehand that I know next to nothing about Heroin addiction apart from the usual stereotypes.

Are you familiar with the (imho mostly excellent) American Sherlock Holmes reinterpretation "Elementary" starring Lucy Liu as a female Dr. Watson? The writers decided to make Holmes a recovering Heroin addict who is constantly fighting his demons parallel to the main story ark, and his struggle with staying sober is addressed regularly. In case you haven't seen it, one point they make which I found interesting is that he never quite "gets over" the addiction but remains in a constant state of struggle. The way they describe it, his life is a constant battle against relapsing, and I always wondered how accurate their general depiction of the reality of recovering from Heroin addiction is.

I don't quite buy into this idea. This certainly isn't my experience with getting sober... though I suppose like with anything else in life, different people experience addiction and recovery from their addiction differently.

I pretty much never think about getting high anymore. I just feel that I've moved on from that part of my life. I do firmly believe, however, that if I started abusing drugs again, there's a chance things would fly off the rails in a short amount of time. Or maybe they wouldn't? I don't really know but I also don't really entertain the thought. I have friends who were also addicted to heroin and now they drink casually and maybe smoke a little pot here and there. I know others who try very hard to stay sober but can't seem to last for more than a few years before relapsing again. These individuals do seem to struggle quite a bit with truly wanting to be sober, which I would imagine is the root of the problem.

But is doing heroin once every three or four years all that bad? I don't know. I mean it certainly isn't good but I suppose it is better than being neck deep in an every day addiction. 

Still, I don't personally feel like sobriety is an every day struggle, but I'm sure some people do feel this way.

That is sort of the problem I have with the 12 step programs... I know people in AA/NA whose lives still basically revolve around drugs. Going to meetings and talking about drugs, hanging out only with other people who used to do drugs, talking about how much they would still love to do drugs but choose not to, going to AA/NA events where almost everyone at the event is a former/current drug addict... I have a family member who is in AA and he can never have a conversation with someone without bringing up how messed up his life used to be or bringing up AA or addiction or drugs in some way shape or form. Sometimes he'll say some seemingly innocent thing like, "That's why, as an addict, I just feel like... blah blah blah blah blah"...always finds a way to bring it up, no matter what. It just seems to me that a lot of these people just can't move past that stage of their life.

I like to think that I have, in fact, moved on from that lifestyle. I've seen what it has to offer and I'm no longer interested. That's not to say I couldn't slip back into addiction if I became careless though. That's why I play it safe and choose to abstain from all mind altering substances, maybe with the exception of caffeine.