(November 13, 2017 at 12:23 pm)pool the matey Wrote:(November 13, 2017 at 12:05 pm)Catholic_Lady Wrote: Why did you go back to being a theist
I had a feeling someone would ask this glad it was you CL. The reason I went back was because of 2 reasons:
* I had a experience. Not sure if I can call it "near death experience" but I could've died but I didn't, I was saved. Sorry I can't say what it was but at that time I thought I would die but it felt unnatural like someone wanted to save me.
* It made me think a lot. I looked at my life vs how my life used to be when I used to be a regular church goer. I didn't like where I was at and I felt like the life I got shouldn't be wasted. So I went back to church at night so no one would see me to listen to our pastor, hearing him speak brought back a lot of memories and gave me courage to take that final step. I think all of this got triggered from that one moment when I was quite literally saved, it felt like someone was telling me "don't die yet I have faith in you". I just couldn't remain the same after that.
Thanks for the question!
You had an hallucination and talked yourself into believing it "meant something." Sad.