I wish

[Drich]

I had a gun and got on chrisian chat with my webcam

And would blow my brains out infrong of all of u

Cuz I tried doing everything

BUT GOD FUCKING HATES ME AND FAILED ME
he wants me to kill myself
And I will

Because I will kill myself and if gods sends me to he'll

The injustice will he on him
And even he won't be able to escape the penalty
June 20 2012

If you could have anything what would you want? A certain girl/boy? Money? power? Love? Control? Authority? what would make things better in your estimation? Why?

[Angrboda]

I've been told gambling's a sin
I'm gonna place my bet
I'm gonna play to win
Ah, yes I'm sure there's a cure for the blues,
You lose you win, you win you lose.

I cried "Oh sweet Lord"
But there's no hope in praying.
Somebody hold me tight
I'm in a whole lotta pain.

I'll be a whole lot older
When this day is done.
I say Russian Roulette
Is just a hole in one.

— Michelle Shocked

[Whateverist]

Suppose you just accept that you are not whatever it was you thought you were supposed to be? If you accept that you have already failed at whatever expectations you have accepted for yourself, what might you do instead? Imagine you've already been annihilated. You don't have to pull the trigger. Just concede your loss. Now what?