Sorry for all of your troubles, and welcome. My suggestion is to stick around here as long as you can, and if you are unable to because of homelessness, at least try to seek out atheist/agnostic/freethinker meet-ups near you. You are among friends here, feel free to reach out to any of us. Also, feel free to keep venting on here, it will help you emotionally.
I usually stay away from relationship counseling, but it's worth taking a look at. This advice is coming from a good place, and should really be a last resort if this forum and seeking fellow friends that think alike near you, isn't enough. Your immediate surroundings have a powerful effect on your life. I know you love your boyfriend, but if this relationship is causing you to want to kill yourself and is causing you severe mental anguish, for your well-being, it may be something you would want to consider ending. You deserve happiness. If you think that will cause you more depression, then don't do it. There are other people out there, and you may meet one at a freethinking meet-up. The more you live a lie, the longer it's going to drive you nuts. The longer you hang around people that are going to want to make you kill yourself, the more likely you are going to become more depressed, the more likely you will end up doing it.
So, try your damnedest to figure out a way to make yourself happy! We're here for you to help you through your troubles. Have a good day!
I usually stay away from relationship counseling, but it's worth taking a look at. This advice is coming from a good place, and should really be a last resort if this forum and seeking fellow friends that think alike near you, isn't enough. Your immediate surroundings have a powerful effect on your life. I know you love your boyfriend, but if this relationship is causing you to want to kill yourself and is causing you severe mental anguish, for your well-being, it may be something you would want to consider ending. You deserve happiness. If you think that will cause you more depression, then don't do it. There are other people out there, and you may meet one at a freethinking meet-up. The more you live a lie, the longer it's going to drive you nuts. The longer you hang around people that are going to want to make you kill yourself, the more likely you are going to become more depressed, the more likely you will end up doing it.
So, try your damnedest to figure out a way to make yourself happy! We're here for you to help you through your troubles. Have a good day!
Anti-intellectualism has been a constant thread winding its way through our political and cultural life, nurtured by the false notion that democracy means that 'my ignorance is just as good as your knowledge.' -Isaac Asimov-
