Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...

[brewer]

I just threw up a little.

You don't understand.

Obvious y not. I un erstan  ick when I rea  ick. ICK ICK ICK! (snigg es)

[Thumpalumpacus]

CIJS ... you crossed a boundary tonight, and I won't forget it, even though I know you'll spend a few hundred words trying to rationalize it ... to yourself.

[vorlon13]

CIJS,

found out recently you're really cutting back on letting your dad visit his grandkids. And it is justified in your view because of his support for your miscreant brother.

Well !! When did you develop standards ??

Seriously, when did YOU develop fucking standards ???

[Longhorn]

I'm sorry.

For always leaving early.
For making up excuses not to go out.
For not being more open.
For not keeping in touch.
For holding back.
For not being as kind as I wish I could be.
For running away all the time.
For being a bad friend.

I'm just scared. That I'll ruin it and that you secretly hate me. Everybody secretly hates me, they're just too nice to show it. I'm afraid of making a fool of myself. Of being vulnerable.

I hate myself too deeply to let you like me and I'm sorry for all the asshole things I do because of it. I really really want someone to stay but pushing people away is a reflex by this point.

I promise I'll make it up to you when I stop being so hung up on destroying myself.

[Jackalope]

CIJS I just learned that you, my employer, have a funny idea of what "no increased benefit cost" means. While it's true that deductibles aren't strictly a "benefit cost", it's pretty reasonable to disclose that you're cost shafting shifting by increasing deductibles.

I wonder why you didn't mention that aspect when you described how awesome you were because the employee premium didn't change.

Oh wait, no I don't.

[J a c k]

I'm sorry.

For always leaving early.
For making up excuses not to go out.
For not being more open.
For not keeping in touch.
For holding back.
For not being as kind as I wish I could be.
For running away all the time.
For being a bad friend.

I'm just scared. That I'll ruin it and that you secretly hate me. Everybody secretly hates me, they're just too nice to show it. I'm afraid of making a fool of myself. Of being vulnerable.

I hate myself too deeply to let you like me and I'm sorry for all the asshole things I do because of it. I really really want someone to stay but pushing people away is a reflex by this point.

I promise I'll make it up to you when I stop being so hung up on destroying myself.

Omg this. So much this.

[brewer]

I'm getting really tired of unreasonable expectations and demands. 

If it upsets you that much talk to god.

[GrandizerII]

I'm sorry.

For always leaving early.
For making up excuses not to go out.
For not being more open.
For not keeping in touch.
For holding back.
For not being as kind as I wish I could be.
For running away all the time.
For being a bad friend.

I'm just scared. That I'll ruin it and that you secretly hate me. Everybody secretly hates me, they're just too nice to show it. I'm afraid of making a fool of myself. Of being vulnerable.

I hate myself too deeply to let you like me and I'm sorry for all the asshole things I do because of it. I really really want someone to stay but pushing people away is a reflex by this point.

I promise I'll make it up to you when I stop being so hung up on destroying myself.

I know someone who feels like that, and I feel for them. I hope you find someone who understands you and stays with you no matter what.

[Regina]

Ugh rant time...

Potential employers of English-as-second-language (ESL) teachers...

When you ask us to come work for you on a tourist visa, because you can't be fucked to help getting an employment visa sorted so we can do things legally, you are basically asking us to risk our future being able to travel for work and therefore our careers.

Food for thought

Well, looks like I'm not travelling just yet, maybe something better will come up

[vorlon13]

CIJS:

yeah, I saw you at the meeting. I'm avoiding you totally. My first glance invoked that same thought I always have when I see you for the last several years:

What could your fucking autopsy report tell me that would be a fucking surprise ?

Jesus Fucking Christ you look bad, you act fucked up when you're fucked up, and you act fucked up when you're not. I didn't get close enough to find out if you still stink, I can only assume you do.

Well, in a 'more perfect' world, you'd be humanely euth'd to cut down on wasting air, as it is, the rest of us get to look at you and do that arrogant "there but for the grace" bullshit. I don't know where bottom is for you, I suspect it was a couple years ago, too bad you didn't pick up on it at the time . . . .



(Yeah, not allowed to say this at 12 Steppers, but they can't stop me from fucking thinking it.)