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RE: Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...
September 6, 2016 at 4:55 pm
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CIJS...
You would never make a CIJS post about the things you say to yourself. The self-criticism. You would never take all the negative things you say about yourself and put them in a post in this thread.
Why not? Because someone might think you were talking about them. And get their feelings hurt.
So what makes it okay to say these things to yourself?
Just saying.
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RE: Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...
September 6, 2016 at 4:56 pm
You're a legend.
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RE: Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...
September 6, 2016 at 4:57 pm
CIJS
I hate being broke all the time.
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RE: Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...
September 6, 2016 at 5:11 pm
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(September 6, 2016 at 2:36 pm)Mamacita Wrote: CIJSAIJBH...
I always fuck up. I mess good things up. I push people away. I hurt people I love. I become isolated. I become cold. I know this. I have a brick for a heart. I'm sorry to all the people I love for being this way. I swear I'm trying. I swear. I swear I push myself to trust, to give in, to be patient, to risk. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry for hurting you. I'm so sorry for pushing you away. For closing the door. For closing my eyes. For keeping my time all to myself. I'm sorry for my bad choices, and for no choices at all. I'm so sorry for making you cry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for being dysfunctional.
Just... know one thing... I'm honest. I have been honest. This is it. This is all I am. What you see, this pile of mistakes, bad judgement, this big blob of utter stupidness, this is me. Please stop trying to read between the lines. Why try to know what I REALLY mean? This is it! It's all of it. Take it for what it's worth.
Again, dear world, all my loved ones, I'm sorry.
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RE: Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...
September 6, 2016 at 5:31 pm
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Fuck honesty in the ass when it becomes a compulsion. Compulsions are not healthy. Honesty is one thing but when I start spouting out every fucking thing on my mind and ignoring normal social cues that isn't good.
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RE: Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...
September 6, 2016 at 5:32 pm
I know these feels so well.
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RE: Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...
September 6, 2016 at 5:34 pm
Still rushed, still abusing time, but there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I am content to give upon my dreams of how today would go. Tomorrow will soon be here.
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RE: Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...
September 6, 2016 at 5:36 pm
(September 6, 2016 at 2:36 pm)Mamacita Wrote: CIJSAIJBH...
I always fuck up. I mess good things up. I push people away. I hurt people I love.
That's the worst feeling in the world. That I've hurt someone. I think about times when I've done that from years and years ago, just by saying something thoughtless. It's not like I try to hurt people, I'm just clumsy with what I do sometimes. I guess.
Anyway. you Mama.
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RE: Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...
September 6, 2016 at 5:38 pm
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Thanks, guys.
My bad if anyone else (irrelevant to this) feels like they fit in there. Mama is sorry for real stuff, not imaginary stuff in the heads of people with a superiority illusions. pah-leez and thank you.
um... and you are? Come again?
My mistake 
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RE: Can I just say, and I'm just being honest...
September 6, 2016 at 5:39 pm
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CIJSAIJBH
I truly believe deeply in my heart and with my brain that what we had was very real and very beautiful. I strongly believe in all that we planned and what could have been. I truly believe there's a reason things went so well for so long but I'm feeling like it's the same reason things went bad. Because we didn't stop and we failed to slow down.
And I'm feeling like I wish I could do it all over again except take it a little slower, ya know?
Goodnight AF.
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